-開玩笑=恐懼
                                                                               
-小孟
                                                                               
-一個成熟男人的背後,仍舊藏不住失敗的愛情。
                                                                               
-我們的時代(成長)=90's
 小野的愛情解嚴
 隨身聽,盜版的錄音帶(收錄所有當時正紅的曲子)
                                                                               
-我的禁語: 孤單&想念。
                                                                               
-梁靜茹唱歌時,發呆。
                                                                               
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晚上的李宗盛演唱會,不知道這是不是這次的最後一場,看起來很像。
                                                                               
                                                                               
(在回家的路上,月亮矇矇亮。
                                                                               
雲遮月,或許只是單單代表明天會下雨,
或許只是很涼爽呢。)
                                                                               
                                                                               
沒有唱的力氣了。
                                                                               
                                                                               
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我承認我有點緊張。
                                                                               
                                                                               
沒來由的, (或者大有來由地)藏在我心裡撲通撲通的在那邊跳啊跳著。
                                                                               
                                                                               
所以其實我不停的藉著亂開玩笑在逃避吧。
                                                                               
(想必是有點不恰當的聒噪了點。)
                                                                               
                                                                               
逃避什麼啊? 緊張什麼呢?

                                                                               
硬是要說的話,大概是一種叫做歷史的東西吧。
                                                                               
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顯而易見。這些曲子背後藏著我們的成長。
                                                                               
                                                                               
還是應該說,我們的成長背後,總是有這些曲子在悠揚動聽呢?
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
這些歌啊,
                                                                               
這些所謂的"你聽歌名大概想不起來但是一聽旋律就朗朗上口"的歌啊。
                                                                               
它們都藏在裡面啊,藏在名為時間的 班黃頁縫裡面啊。
                                                                               
                                                                               
當年的隨身聽,還被稱作walkman。
                           
我記得我第一台隨身聽是國小的時候,偷用姐姐的。
                                                                               
一卷卡帶,大概是神奇的地下經濟所造就,
                                                                               
有著當時前後幾年所有的好歌。
                                                                               
另外在我手上的還有一本當時救國團所印製的流行歌譜。
                                                                               
也不知道哪裡救國,但總之是深刻的迷戀著了。
                                                                               
                                                                               
我把那些曲子翻來覆去的聽,裡面好多的好多,
                                                                               
都是,
                                                                               
都是今晚聽見的。
                                                                               
李宗盛。
                                                                               
                                                                               
一個現在看/聽起來,居然有點像是小孟般猥瑣的中老年。
                                  
(雖然他用他的歌曲證明了,他絕不是!!!)
                                                                               
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那應該是懷念啊,為什麼會緊張?
                                                                               
                                                                               
簡而言之,
                                                                               
人似乎是一種愛懷念 卻又不肯老老實實面對過往的生物吧。
                                                                               
(儘管那些個過往比起現今和未來是多麼的閃亮有希望!)
                                                                               
好漢提當年勇的時機總是酒酣耳熱,
被人家半拱半讓半推半就的說了一大套又不知道停止的藝術。
                                                                               
你總是會怕的,
                                                                               
那是一整個時代啊!
                                                                               
畢竟。

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我想我不用去重新花費力氣去描述那個時代,
                                                                               
日本人的泡沫經濟,亞洲四條小龍。
                                                                               
美國還未邁入下一波的景氣 大陸的解嚴還在那邊會談來會談去。
                                                                               
總之那是我們一不小心就在期間生長的年代。
                                                                               
總之我們生長了。
                                                                               
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一直以來,我其實不太願意承認(由於某些不可考的原因)
                                                                               
我對現代史中的現代特別感興趣。
                                                                               
也就是中美斷交之後,退出聯合國,文革的年代。
                                                                               
其後有一條歌,叫 "從民國66年起"

                                                                               
中華商場,鐵路尚未地下化, 穿訂做的制服書包要拉鬚
                                                                               
青少年騎的是野狼,聽的是空中補給。
                                                                               
                                                                               
當時的娛樂也比我們現在統一而聚焦。
                                                                               
(而直到現在 我老是有個錯覺是認為 當時的一切都比現在的東西要好。)
                                                                               
(比方說歌曲的意境和詞,比方說中華商場,比方說改建前的台北車站)
                                                                               
                                                                               
我始終認為,下意識的確信,
                                                                               
當時的人們活的遠比現在的我們有希望的多。
                                                                               
閃亮亮地,不無自豪地,努力的去過活。
                                                                               
(By definition,當時=從中美斷交以後~今時今日的前一天。)
                                                                               
(due to above, 我認為我們正在無可避免的衰敗和卑微,straight down.)

                                                                               
原因可能是因為 當時的我,心智未開。
                                                                               
可能是因為 從當時小蘿蔔頭的眼中,一切都是新鮮奇幻未明。
                                                                               
總之那時的人們似乎連哼的歌都比較有靈魂,有意境,有感情。
                                                                               
(一切可能是美化效應)
                                                                               
但我深刻的迷戀著了。
                                                                               
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我記得中學時期開始認識一些台灣作家開始讀他們的書。
                                                                               
倒也不用多花功夫去蒐集,在金石堂(當時誠品還是個半成品)就俯拾即是。
                                                                               
其中有一個小野。
                                                                               
我大概讀他的一點東西,從比較以前的開始讀,
直到他開始瘋狂的介紹他的家庭為止,我才放棄。

                                                                               
有一本,
                                                                               
名為愛情解嚴。
                                                                               
講的大概就是我剛剛所說的那個時代。
                                                                               
80s'~ 90s'
                                                                               
"都會男女"的愛情故事。
                                                                               
一般說來我不會對這種東西有特別的興趣(除非有性愛場面)
                                                                               
但我對他所描寫 貫串的音樂,老歌卻很是執迷。
                                                                               
薛岳啊,潘越雲,齊豫...
這些在我成長時期閃亮甚至沒落的星星們。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
提到這本書不為別的,
                    
就為了書中詳細描寫的曲子們。
                                                                               
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似乎和今晚無關。
                                                                               
                                                                               
但其實,今晚在插科打諢之餘,我心中其實滿滿的都是這些東西。
                                                                               
                                                                               
關於時間和懷念。
                                                                               
關於我們生長並且錯過(體會)的那個年代,
                                                                               
那一整個年代。
                                                                               
                                                                               
我們是不是就此錯過了對於希望的體會?
                                                                               
                                                                               
想著想著,我竟然錯過梁靜茹大部分的歌,虧她唱了六首。

                                                                               
六首都是林憶蓮的好歌。
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