鄰座總算來了人:
                                                                               
一個和我差不多年紀的大學女生。
                                                                               
                                                                               
一道看不見的牆果然存在。
                                                                               
現實和幻想。
                                                                               
                                                                               
---
                                                                               
她不斷的和其男朋友在電話內作著線上的調情:
                                                                               
"你在幹嘛?"
                                                                               
"你看什麼網站? 在看A片嗎? 你好壞喔~"
                                            
........
                                                                                
                                                                                
教父竟然開始好看了。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
(不過我仍然卡在老教父 Don Corleone 剛被人狙擊的地方。)
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
窗外的天陰陰的,海面也是。
                                                                               
看得到海了。
                                                                               
就在我第三次假寐並且暗自咒罵該女生往自己身上塗抹不必要的的唇蜜護手霜痔瘡軟膏
的同時,
                                                                               
海從窗邊出現了。
                                                                               
感覺上是慢慢的移動至視野範圍
                                                                               
                                                                               
並沒有我想像的藍。
               
 ---
                                                                               
                                                                               
我聞著那些唇蜜護手霜痔瘡軟膏,
                                                                               
不耐煩,不無注意地那樣子聞著。
                                                                               
避免自己陷入早已陷入的misogyny。
                                                                               
                                                                               
幻想旁邊坐的會是一個熟識的人,或是可能認識的人。
                                                                               
幻想該怎麼攀談或是回應她的攀談。
                                                                               
我幻想她是我國中的同學,名字叫周玉X。
                                                                               
我幻想她為了塗抹人造芳香撲鼻的唇蜜護手霜痔瘡軟膏時不時
露出了右手臂上的胎記而我錯愕失聲呼名。
"周玉X!" 這樣子地 我大叫。
                                                                               
我幻想我左手臂上的胎記令她驚呼而唇蜜護手霜痔瘡軟膏失手落於地板我撿起。
"劉禹伸!" 這樣子地 她大叫。
                                                                               
我幻想 她略嫌方正的下頷在唇蜜護手霜痔瘡軟膏的掩飾下
隱隱藏著一枚不屬於她的水果。
                                                                               
是蘋果。
                                                                               
蘋果的主人也不是她。
                                                                               
是亞當的。
                                                                               
                                                                               
原來她X的原來我記錯了。
                                                                               
周玉X 其實 叫做周育X
                                                                               
而X=X 音同自不同的 兩個字。
                                                                               
而原來的原來 他 並不是我的國中同學 周玉X
                                                                               
不是那個曾經暗戀我然後被我玩弄肩帶長達一個半月的 周玉X
                                                                               
而是 周育X 一個曾經在六年級痛扁我的 (我是說狠狠的痛扁我)

                                                                                
我的國小同學 原住民血統 我曾經說了些對他的出身不大禮貌的低級玩笑
                                                                               
而他痛扁了我一頓。
                                                                               
現在 在我的幻想裡,在陰沉的天和陰沉的海高速行駛間
                                                                               
在老教父Don Corleone 被打了六槍要死不死的生死玄關之間,
                                                                               
他塗抹著唇蜜護手霜痔瘡軟膏 在他的嘴唇 細白而長的項頸
                                                                               
再往下看是兩球隆起,(在我幻想的幻想之中那是柔軟而久經搓揉的。)
                                                                               
而他的短裙直接連接了黑色的褲襪,
去年秋季開始直至現在令我最無法諒解的少女流行。
                                                                               
我的幻想在他的短裙之間宣告破滅。
                                                                               
短裙之間,不是溝渠,並非花蕊與蜂蜜,
                                                                               
而是令在下自嘆弗如的 屬於這塊土地 原生的驕傲。

                                                                               
而幻想中塗抹芳香的纖纖柔荑,
其實是曾經令我恐懼而痛哭流涕的 憤怒鐵拳。
                                                                               
                                                                               
...
                                                                               
幻想到此為止。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
因為頭城到了。
                                                                               
                                                                               
我想想,既然我的目的只是一個海邊。
                                                                               
那宜不宜蘭其實也沒多大分別。
                                                                               
                                                                               
總之現在窗外是一片陰颼颼的海。
                                                                               
那頭不頭城 也都會是一片陰颼。

                                                                                
我把書本合起。
                                                                               
像是得救似的飛奔下車。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
我的故事中可能出現的 一流美少女,
                                                                               
兀自喃喃對手機低語。
                                                                               
                                                                               
三步併作兩步,加速逃離自己的幻想。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
大抵 不管到哪,不管你是誰,
                                                                               
逃離幻想都會是你 一不小心得去做的一件事。
                                                                               
since u've built such an illsutionary future ahead of you.

  I mean Every One Of YOU!!!     

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