接下來我應該省略。
一大段又一大段的敘述。
成串的字眼,比喻,oxymoran,
後設的意識流的,魔幻的,成篇上段的,
                                                                               
反正都只是幻想。
                                                                               
故事的敘述總是為我自己的岔題所打斷的話,那主題又該在什麼時候開始呢?
                                                                               
                                                                               
總之我下了火車,試著很浪漫的,用耳朵聽出海岸的所在。
                                                                               
辦不到。
                                                                               
明明在火車上的時候,海就在外面的啊,現在一下車,
                                                                               
反而躲的無影無蹤。
                                                                               
                                                                               
我試著往我相信的方向前進,踏入了人家的田地,
                                                                               
一不小心踢倒了一桶子餿水,
                       
                                                                               
被10隻以上的群集的流浪狗瘋狂的追逐。
                                                                               
也是在所難免的,不能怪狗,
試想如果有一個時常壓迫我的生活的階級人物
忽然一聲不吭,闖入我們偉大的無產階級群眾的簡報會議,
                                                                               
那豈不是找死嗎?
                                                                               
所以我被追的心甘情願,汗流浹背。
                                                                               
                                                                               
天色漸漸的黯了下來,遠處。
                                                                               
遠處竹籬似乎堆織成了巨大的陰影,巨大而纖長。
                                                                               
彷如一基因突變的 B級電影的 詭異昆蟲巨獸,
                                                                               
保護著瓜棚下的卵,棚下一個個的瓜。
                                                                               
陰陰的天,不給任何警告地說熄就熄。
                                                                               
取而代之的是一輪圓滿,銀白色的圓,圓潤的銀,
                                                                               
參雜點病態的黯紅,昏黃到底在哪裡呢?
                                                                               
                                                                               
在我純潔而低能的幻想裡,是要有很多很亮的星的。
                                                                               
像尼羅河上的那樣,像不要錢的那樣,滿滿都是。
                                                                               
一整個天空,配上銀白的月,漆黑的海,黑的發亮。
                                                                               
                                                                               
但現在確是一點也不見。
                                                                               
看的見的只有車站旁邊海產店和土產店的霓虹不斷的繞著
                                                                               
"特價199" 或是 "啤酒三瓶一百,生猛!"等字樣。
                                                                               
                                                                               
(遠處巨大的竹籬動了一下。)
                                                                               
我發現在這邊,我不知為何而來,不知道往哪裡去。
                                                                               
                                                                               
在現在這個此刻,這個地方,我有一個莫名奇妙想去的地方(看得到的海的地方)
                                                                               
但是,雖然這裡說的是國語,用的是台幣,
                                                                               
我卻比埃及還遙遠。
                                                                               
甫自下火車那剎那開始,我就一腳踏進了這個狀態,
                                                                               
與來處切離,尚未和去處接軌,
                                                                               
飄飄蕩蕩跌跌撞撞,
                                                                               
迷路。
                                                                               
                                                                               
(遠處的竹籬 疑是錯覺,怎麼越來越遠了)
                                                                               
                                                                               
我這輩子第一次體驗這種"與來處切離,卻尚未和去處接軌"的尷尬境地
                                                                               
是在小學的時候,
                                                                               
每個禮拜一次的鋼琴課,就在學校和家之間的某處,
                                                                               
我總是在放學後,走向鋼琴老師 背著拜爾和撤爾尼 還有"小朋友的小奏鳴曲"
走向老師一個鐘頭500元的纖纖柔荑和 嘴巴裡時不時散發出的咖啡味。
                                                                               
在四年級之前我暗自想像那大概是全世界最性感的味道了。
                                                                               
                                                                               
每次上課我都這麼淫邪而天真的走著。
                                                                               
                                                                               
但就有那麼一次,在上完鋼琴課之後,歸途上遇到周育X,
                                                                               
那個時候他還沒有K我一頓,我們姑且算是不錯的朋友
                                                                               
他也走向他家,兩層樓的矮房子。樓下是他們家自營的印刷廠,
沒看見過印什麼令人印象深刻的東西,
主要是那種在火車站 電話亭擺很多的佛經,或是新約的節錄
(皆附有頭像 有著耶穌苦悶的皺眉 還有佛祖似笑非笑)
                                                                               
(我後來問他 萬一搞混 把佛頭印上新約 卻把耶穌頭印到大悲咒該怎麼辦)
                                                                               
(周育X罵我 怎麼可能你豬頭。)
                                                                               
                                                                               
彼時刻他在路上問我: "要不要來我家打魂斗羅?"
                                                                               
那當然是好。
                                                                               
                                                                               
在打完魂斗羅之後的兩個小時,天空已經差不多像眼下般黑了,
                                                                               
我心不甘情不願的離開。
                                                                               
路上還買了那個時候一串15塊的甜不辣。
                                                                               
                                                                               
對,就像現在這樣。
華燈初上,夜晚的熱鬧呈現在夜市裡。
                                                                               
但路途我已經不認識了。
                                                                               
我卡在我家和學校之間,某一段似曾相識卻毫無印象的路,
                                                                               
路邊的人連長相也不陌生,但就是不像我家鄰居。
                                                                               
                                                                               
與來處分離,卻尚未和去處連接。
                                                                               
像是一節行駛中脫軌的列車,
                                                                               
                                                                               
像是現在這樣。
                                                                               
(竹籬堆又動了一下,真的不是我的錯覺,我想了想,好奇心大於懶惰,走向遠處。)

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